Am I Weak Enough to Be a Christian?
I have faced difficult situations countless times, finally learning to surrender control to God after playing god becomes too exhausting. Often He has surprised me with bonafide miracles, miracles even skeptical teenagers could not explain away. One would assume I would be experienced enough to stop trying to control but I am still weak.
So these past few months, I have been chastising myself for my failure to cope with the stress of a family crisis. Surely I should be mature enough spiritually to rise above my circumstances, rest in the heart of God, and facilitate unity as the calm, benevolent matriarch of my